If Only

by Brad Bordessa

  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    Purchasable with gift card

      $7 USD  or more


  • Compact Disc (CD) + Digital Album

    The full experience! Gatefold card case with CD and booklet of lyrics featuring the original artwork by Alicia Greenwell.

    Includes unlimited streaming of If Only via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    ships out within 10 days

      $15 USD or more 


  • Full Digital Discography

    Get all 3 Brad Bordessa releases available on Bandcamp and save 15%.

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality downloads of Draw The Line At 13 [Single], Point A [EP], and If Only. , and , .

    Purchasable with gift card

      $10.20 USD or more (15% OFF)




Recorded & Mixed at: Behind A Mattress Studios in Ahualoa, HI from September 2016 - March 2017 by Brad Bordessa
Additional recording at: Bigger Kid Studios, Kamuela, HI; Crystal Lake Studios, Nova Scotia, Canada; and Ryno Studio, Pa'auilo, HI
Mastered at: Archive Mastering by J. LaPointe
All songs written by Brad Bordessa


released June 1, 2017

Brad Bordessa - Vox, 'Ukulele, Guitar, Bass, Steel Guitar, Banjo, Claps Noa Eads - Drums
Ryan “Higgs” Higgins - Backup Vox on "Atlas"
James Hill - String Arrangement on "If Only"
Alan Ku - Bass on "Sister’s Got A Gun"
Jeff Quin - Fiddle on "Fallout"

Evan Bordessa - Photography
Alicia Greenwell - Artwork


all rights reserved



Brad Bordessa Honokaa, Hawaii

'Ukulele in Hawai'i? You think plastic leis and palm trees. Brad thinks full-spectrum musical expression. Welcome to the party.

contact / help

Contact Brad Bordessa

Streaming and
Download help

Track Name: Corners
“That’s the take, Sarah” said the boys from the control room
Convinced that they just tracked the next big thing
A star she’d make, but she was a fake, high on Melodyne
But that didn’t matter; the label would give her wings

Jimmy and Jane made four months with a baby on the table
Dealt the cards of a one night, cheatin’ stand
“We’ll name him Paul,” and that was all fine, but she often wondered
One less drink and would she have played her hand

She’ll never know
But now she tells her baby son

Don’t you straighten the corners
Life gets lost as the crow flies
Destiny tries to warn you
So don’t put her last and pass her by

“These are the lies you’ll live with!” screamed the oil runner’s daughter
“You can’t put back what was never yours to take!”
In time he’ll find that the land he mined could better have served as forest
But for now he bows to Exxon and their stakes

Mother culture, whispering in my ear saying
“Don’t leave this path I’ve brought you on”
“You might not make it back in time”
Well, mother I can find my way
The long road’s fine
You can take back all your fear
Track Name: Fallout
Madi’s grandson grew up in a graveyard
But still the house felt like home
Beneath the concrete, a mass burial 10 feet deep
He hears the voices when he’s alone

“Grandma can hear them too? The boys say that I’m crazy”
She says “No, but I can tell you their names”

They were, they were urban angels
The rebels who challenged the throne
They were, they were our best chance
Until the silos cracked and the city glowed

“So that’s why you’re sick – the fallout crippled you”
His gas mask fogged is he cried
“I feel helpless, but knowing this I could never rest”
“Tell me more of the lie”

She turns her wheelchair and looks out on the desert
And says “No, this is not a child’s game”

“I can’t believe they would level a whole city, Grandma how did you survive?”
“There were nine of us,” she said “who made it to the shelter and we locked ourselves inside”
“But if I could do it all again I would,” and a fire burned in her eyes
Track Name: Bulletproof
Look towards the crowd
Can’t you see her she’s wearing
The high lace up boots and the big hoop earrings
Black lipstick says upfront “speak on the dark side”
But with eyes like that in the light you’ll stay

If you see her you’d be wise to tread lightly
She made up her mind yesterday

Soon she will find that what she had in mind
Will slow down her search for the perfectly aligned
In her plans a quick trip to Japan
Will make sure that her friends will be worried when she goes missing

She’s fed up and sick of everything mainstream
Her personal redlist is 13 feet long
Just last week she killed with a sentence
A man rumored to have had nothing to say

If you see her you’d be wise to speak lightly
She made up her mind yesterday

Holding back the hate is bulletproof glass though it is flawed
How long till it breaks?
She doesn’t want to find out
That’s why she should’ve left yesterday

Look towards the crowd
You can’t miss her she’s perfect
Perfectly crazy about no one who gets in her way…
Track Name: Reason
Hasn’t event been one month
Don’t even know her sister’s name
Think too hard I can’t even see her face, but I could
That’s the reason for the empty frame

There’s that look again
A whole future stretched out at the sight
I don’t know where that smile has been, but I could
Question is: do I want it in my life?

Two moments in time
Passing by

When you read between the lines
There might be four letters you’re not to see
Only the writer knows the truth
And holds the key

How many times have we all been here before
All alone in an answerless place
Don’t know what I want from love, but I could
Given there’s a God and a change of pace
Track Name: Silent Segue
Silence. Silence is your only friend.
Track Name: Atlas
Raise your hand
Feel the gravity
Of this time
A life you must lead
There are no exits
Just one way forward

Let’s be clear
This isn’t sympathy
But a call
Alone we each are angry figures
At our weakest
But find a way to link together
And the puzzle reaches

Cherish the weight of the world
Shoulders frozen
You have been chosen to see this through
Stronger by far in numbers
We are Atlas

Meet my crew
This is what they do
Their protests a masterpiece
Ask me and I couldn’t tell you
Their names
But I know that they are here with me
Just the same
Track Name: Take Your Mind Away
Take your mind away just for a moment
Leave the rat race in the street
Walk a mile in the shoes of your shadow
There in the darkness, a heart beats

In this time of the constant memory
Keep in mind there are no new thoughts to think
10,000 years or more of conscious
Of what waters didn’t your elders drink?

So why numb the senses by plugging in
Introduce yourselves to the monsters that
Live beneath your skin
And remember… they. are. you.

Who’s to say there’s not a channel
Opened only in the moments behind a blink
Split-second years that the eyes think they don’t see
Light is darkness of varying strengths
Track Name: Sister's Got a Gun
Tonight, she’s part of the problem
That no one else is willing to solve
It’s time someone did something
And she’s ready to take the fall

There are lies and there are destroyers
Intended to break a mind
When both come for her brother
She learns just how fast fate binds

There’s only so much a young mind can take
Before the walls of home close in

Sisters got a gun
There’s no stopping now
Look out your window and see her running you down
Sister’s got a gun
I hope you’re fleeing now
But if a bullet finds you no one would cry anyhow

“Dear dad, you let this happen…”
Starts the letter she could never send
Plain words feel empty
When facing a family’s end

There’s only so much that a letter can say
When a parent lets the demons in

All pain does end
But how you get there is up to you
Resentment is bred by inaction in face of the truth
It’s a little too late for remorse
Track Name: If Only
Lately I’m of just one mind
And it lingers on
A pair of eyes and a smile

Took time to find my way
True North broke free
Now my compass forever seeks you

There’s beauty in a mystery
Like holding hands in the dark
But a part of me wants to explain it

Thoughts die on my lips

If only words did it justice
Then I might attempt to say
That this is love, love we might find our way
If only words that it justice
Then I wouldn’t need this song
Because you would know my mind and I would never speak wrong

So why do I waste my time
When every word fall short?
This is my only way of coping

Maybe with a melody
These lines can take the place
Of a tongue tied up around you

If you like Brad Bordessa, you may also like: